Looking Back At 2022

I had a light in my heart. It glowed brightly, lighting everything around me as I was happy and cheerful. I felt there were people around me who helped me keel the light lit. I am not used to making conversations, but I love when people are around me in general. From a long time of life I tried to derive happiness from other people. Then suddenly a global pandemic struck. We were distancing from each other. Everybody was getting used to new normal, but I was finding it very difficult. People were merely a chat head and a bit of text coming from the other end in a virtual world. I had missed people, in fact I had missed their presence around me. I had hoped that it would get better as the time goes by, well now it has already been two years.

People go on with their lives no matter what and time doesn’t stop, does it? People are moving forward with their own lives and are busy on their own. Those online conversations are fading, even with the people who were closest to me. Loneliness has crippled like a darkness. It tries to blow away that light. I now have understood that I would have to let go of things. People won’t be there for you forever for you. I now understand what self-care is. I have stopped searching for “the point” in life. Not only that, but I have understood that life is all about just living it.

Isn’t it just chemicals. Happiness, loneliness, they are just chemical reactions in the brain. Everything around us is just stimuli’s, and it all depends on how you process that information and respond to it.

Anyway, enough overthinking lol. Happy new year!!